i think i've taken a serious liking for j-rock. thanks to the intro by vocalist from extasy. my first ever j-rock band: X-japan. they're absolutely fantastic. plus their band has an extremely tragic history. thats hot. i like controversy.
just made an interesting discovery. the lyrics i write are mostly soft emo style. probably thats why i can appreciate X-japan's style of songs. especially after i acquainted myself with their history. ACDC is the english version of X-japan. excellent.
you're so undervalued, baby. that you're made of misinterpretations. an un-object in your possession is what it takes. go ahead and be my guest.
i'd turn the car around and run away just you and i and i dont wanna speak these words cuz i dont wanna make things any worse.
perfection at 8:38 PM
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
should be doing my GPP now. dang i hate pw so bad. like it will boost my creativity skills.
throat's not gettin any better. maybe i'll take a long term break. and just play the keyboard or better, the triangle. as long as i keep the use of my voice at bay.
my physiotherapist commented on my name. as most people do anyway. said it sounded either russian or roman. now thats a first. i wonder how would it feel like to be a communist.
so kiss me hard cuz this will be the last time that i'll let you.
perfection at 8:57 PM
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aj idol semifinals. i really have to testify to God's faithfulness. was down with fever, flu and an inflammed throat on saturday. cured of fever and flu by monday, aj idol day. even contemplated not performing at all. half an hour before i went on stage. i sounded like a frog. so i said i quick prayer and believed in it with all my heart. five minutes before i went on stage. i coughed and my throat was totally cleared. though i still sounded nasal.
absolutely overwhelming. that feeling when you step beyond that red curtain. maiden performance, wow. judges' feedback: confident band. although we didnt get to the finals in the end. mainly due to it being a popularity contest and our lack of publicity. we had many positive comments coming from the AVA, council and tech crew. what can i say, we're a user-friendly band.
i'd like to thank all those who never failed to give me the support i needed. especially the whole of monday when i was feeling sick, feeling nauseant and feeling like i couldnt possibly perform. shall roughly name the main groups. the badm team, arca, 08/06, 06/06FTM, aj idol crew, jael and some of the idol contestants too. awww i feel loved :D
i dont give a * keep lookin at my * cuz it dont mean a thing if you're lookin at my *.
perfection at 12:41 AM
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
thoughts loose in my mind. feelings not embedded but randomly reminded of. to each unit living in specific heart rooms:
you were so close before. my comfort zone. where warm oceans roll up to meet the golden shore. your smile, beautiful. your eyes, soft yet strong. i see you through an open window pair. but do i know you? no wait, do you know me?
where has our sunday gone to. our routine fellowship. have we lost it so soon? like a lady ageing with time. the inability to rectify what nature has for us. no more "tell the world". our number one jam tune. well to each their commitments.
not helping and not fulfilling. strumming empty, emotionless songs. not from the depth of my heart but from the surface of my skin. every other's whims and fancies except my own. last this till a fresh breath of air is found. i have three. why cant any of them function perfectly?
i've given up on giving up slowly i'm blending in so you wont even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate this one last bullet you mention it's my one last shot at redemption cause i know to live you must give your life away
and i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and i've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key and i've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me and even though there's no way of knowing where to go i promise i'm going because i'm begging you to be my escape.
perfection at 10:40 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
i'm bushed. my feet are honestly dead. after standing hours for church easter production. our choir in black. but i'd do it all over again. maybe consider it long-term.
nothing beats seeing the work of salvation. watching people undergo divine healing. and hearing them testify to His love and grace. nothing in this world inspires more than that. not the typical feeling you can describe.
i'm my own witness. i'm my own testimony. not by chance but by design. proven just, one by one. its time for faith to be put into action.
i'd love a guy. who can croon me a tune. get the hint.
help this Shepherd be a Lamb that must be slain to bring life once again.
perfection at 10:49 PM
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Monday, April 10, 2006
i dont feel a thing. just void of emotion. does it REALLY make a difference anymore? wisdom answer me. why dont you just take your wash in before it starts pouring. maybe then you'll still have some left. redeem yourself before time closes in. do you honestly wanna make it to the top?
this is so strange. maybe we dont belong here. alike in nature but differing in adaptation. we were meant to live for so much more. this standard's just way below the benchmark. are you a diamond in the rough? well then this is it.
hold my hand and lead me to Silent Bay to watch the sunset on your shoulder.
perfection at 9:22 PM
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
just read through my old blog entries. decided i wanna get blog archives. someone out there who has html powers. please come save me.
results of aj idol bands out tmr. this aint meaning much to me now. and i'm sick of all this unproductivity.
no matter how much i detach myself from TN. i cant seem to eradicate our memories. "time to move" is our total ownage. or so i presume. but is it really time for us to move on? i pray the contrary.
cuz you're going away and you're never coming back thats why you made our world so sad.
perfection at 11:43 PM
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
first time ever performing on stage like that. my hands and legs were so tense. possibly also because i had to use all my strength to hit the snare. music was drowning. then again. i was afraid i'd forget my lyrics. vocals are the most crucial component. you go off key and thats it. mellow it is. it cant be changed.
my voice just aint cut out for rhcp genre. but a lot of people said i made the song my own. like i sang it my style and not the rhcp version. on the way to the bus stop home. some random guy and his friends stopped me. asked if i was the one who did californication. according to them i was really damn good. but i thought otherwise. i really CANNOT do this kinda genre.
i was absolutely amused by the way wong ci and harry converse. should i label it a friendly bicker or mindless squabbling. they seem as if they have a lot of fun together. and i have evidence from one of their conversations. which involved a comparison between AC, RJ, AJ and ST NICKS chicks. interesting i must say.
its not a game anymore. no more rolling the dice of chance. its all preparation meeting opportunity. basic idealogy clash. every perfect circle has a deficiency i guess. something's gotta change.
oh did i mention i love people with good english?
keep to this path dont wander off and i'm sure we'll make it.
perfection at 2:54 PM
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
i feel there's hope. there's really something there. the first time i walked into a box. and felt we could make it. we could really do this.
corruption is the IN thing now. whats goin on. thats all we think about. plus money and status as incentives. tell me about the new disco era. when will rap take over again.
you over there way beyond what words can describe warm lights just serve to hide your flaws.
perfection at 8:45 PM
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
i'm just anti-social crap now. i know it. its my thingy wingy. so people online right now. STOP talking to me. i might throw you out of the window. i pray your forgiveness.
yea so dont send me emails. dont send me songs. dont send me links. just dont make me do stuff. thank you and have a nice day.
i'll be just fine pretending i'm not i'm far from lonely and its all that i've got.
perfection at 11:19 PM
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this world is all about relativity. without definite definitions. or so i figured.
i really do enjoy such one to one conversations with close friends. just a cup of coffee and a nice atmosphere. perfect interaction conditions. like on thursday with jar. and today with jael. plus on both of these days i reached home at around twelve at night. i so didnt wanna end it. plainly put, this is my kinda sustenance.
dome and chris are soooo connected. but why chris? its a rather i-wont-name-my-kid-that-kinda-name name. well its a pity he's cute. or he'd soooo be ignored. dome: the upcoming hangout.
a disease he cannot heal a finding he cannot refute a revelation he cannot ignore.
perfection at 12:17 AM
theJOURNEY.
theTUNES.
what sing you.
theMUSICIAN.
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